What’s up girls. Long time no post.
I’ve been very grumpy and emo these days. More grumpy than emo. As evident in my past few posts hahaha. Manusia memang hidup untuk mencabar kesabaran dan keimanan manusia lain. I’m also getting old already la, I am already sick and tired of layaning people’s BS and will outrightly show I am sick of entertaining people’s bullshit.
You know whatever Meryl Streep said about getting older and not caring about pleasing people? (But actually the quote is by someone else…)
I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretence, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.
– José Micard Teixeira
Very eloquent. Which is why when people say I am aloof or unfriendly, honestly my dear, I don’t give a damn.
My colleague also recently told me when I was complaining to him about some people, “Everyone also annoying to you ah?” HAHAHA
To which I replied, “Yah! Which makes the people I like more special, right! Like you!”
Pengampu benar aku ni hahahaha. But it’s true leh. I guess it’s an introvert thing plus just my personality haha. So, siapa-siapa yang jadi kawan aku, count yourself lucky 😛
Anyway, stop ranting! Updates please.
Mr. I’s siblings kata nak contribute something because I think his mom asked them to (wallahualam), but then the T&C they gave macam ridiculous (to me, and actually bukan macam je lol). So I listed out all the miscellaneous things we haven’t settled and they can decide among themselves what they want to choose to pay for.
I am so annoyed with venue seriously. One reason is cos of the T&C from previous point and second, cos we really don’t want to have a cramped space for our guests. Both of us are claustrophobic. Which I’m sure will add to the feeling of being irritated if we see our own venue crowded with people. I honestly don’t mind a CC especially if the first point comes true lol but actually even if people don’t help financially, and if I’m desperate, and if I’m like feeling degil gila babi, void deck sudahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Aku yang nak kahwin, bukan kau. Kau hado? Huh, hado? Takdo kan.
Okay my grumpiness is coming out again.
Anyway, we listed out a list of things to ask our caterer/decor team yesterday and glad I made Mr. I write them all down nyehehe (kalau tidak, asik-asik aku yang tulis je hmpf lol) because he remembered of more points to ask than I did. Al-maklum I am very forgetful these days.
Then, Mr. I’s kind JB friend is volunteering to drive us around JB one day to source for berkat vendors. Looking forward to going out of this dreary country filled with zombies and strange men who keep staring at me like they are offended with how I look, but then when I relentlessly stare back at them, they suddenly become wusses. Suck it la. You want to play the staring game with me. YOU WILL NEVER WIN.
Btw, I didn’t get Top 8 for the competition I joined. Of course, very sad cos no hope to win $5k that could be used for the wedding, but also very sad cos I thought ” literary writing” is a no hope venture for me. But then, a local Malay author whose works I admire came out on FB to talk about certain issues she has with the selected stories, and instantly, it was like someone turned on the light for me. What she says was right (and all those involved can forget about the drama that ensues). And since this is not the place to talk about this, I shall not delve deeper. My work really did not fit what the jury was looking for, and yes I also think that the jury did seem to have a very narrow definition of the genre. But yah — Just wanted to say, I won’t be $5k richer by the time 10 December rolls around. Sobs.